#Leave it up to the Fandom ig

[kreepyveebs]

now we have Miku, Len, AND luka in genshin lol

[the-great-horse-cocktail]

Alternate timeline where Stanley doesn’t accidentally ruin Ford’s project but he still doesn’t get into Geek Life University bc some kid showed up with a baking soda volcano

[batcavescolony]

Im gonna say something controversial

Some of you are disappointed in the Agatha All Along finale because you expected too much.

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Hi? Gosh how do I even start with this :'D

I know it's been ages since I've last popped up on here. I've been debating when to post this for a while, but I kept adding to my draft more and more and now it's the end of JULY omgg I felt so guilty disappearing with zero updates but then thought my birthday would be the best day to finally address this considering it'll feel less random? idk but Ive always celebrated my bday with you guys and I'd feel so bad answering your kind asks without me at least explaining why I was gone for months.

Truth be told, I was dealing with a lot of stuff irl. health issues and sudden declining grades that left me stumped and drained for months now- along with technical issues like having to replace some parts of my computer that took a while for me to find to even draw digitally, which I didn't have the time for anyway with how tired and weary I felt every day.

I'm frankly shaken up by a lot of shit rn and I don't know how to be active online with this burden on my chest- Especially as it's been a while since I've even looked at utmv related content and my motivation dwindled. I swear I'd hype myself up to post or reblog something- but I'd see just how much I've missed or the overwhelming amount of posts I'd need to go through and I'd feel so swamped with exhaustion and most importantly guilt, for not clearing the air up sooner to reassure you guys that I'm, y'know, alive, and not dead in a ditch somewhere. And I'd procrastinate cause typing it all out is hard and I'd give up halfway every time and it's just not fair to you all!

I thought I was handling it well when I started going out and socializing more, instead of staying cooped up at home on my computer all day. and in the first draft of this post I made months ago I was gonna detail some of the fun plans I had, for my life and for this blog :D but relaxing my strict study schedule and letting go a bit of my tight routine, thinking it was better than wringing myself dry to keep it up, backfired horribly, to say the least.

I know right?? so silly to be hung up on stupid shit like studies of all things! but this is a very important thing for me considering my career plans and the competitivity encouraged by everyone I'm surrounded by, the pressure of keeping up adding to my already stressful days. I had to fix myself up first and I couldn't handle the strain nor interact with people and thinking of jobs and exams sapped my energy so much it's frankly embarrassing. writing this feels so cheesy too and it frustrates me to know I could've come back a month earlier if it weren't for that, but I also know putting all of this into words then would just sound like incoherent venting (not that this is very different tbf) and I wasn't in the right headspace to address my absence, or anything really- I didn't want everyone to see me return when I couldn't muster up a genuinely positive message, let alone talk to anyone with a shadow of my usual cheer

I feel like a complete mess and It drives me up the wall how depressed I've gotten. I debated deleting this blog so many times 'cause the fear of disappointing my audience and my friends, for lack of a more fitting sentiment, made me feel even shittier. I'm constantly thinking if this wall of text is worth posting, or if it's better not to burden you all with all my sappy troubles as if it's the end of the world. Trust me, I'll be fine. I'm not trying to dramatize this situation, but I don't think I'm up to pretending I'm all sunshine and enthusiasm you're all accustomed to.

So sorry for worrying you all! I'll try to catch up, deliver some missed birthday gifts, and answer some asks while I'm at it! Again, I can't state how much I appreciate your support throughout the years. It's frankly a miracle I kept any of you around with how much I keep popping and leaving at random with no warning. I definitely can't promise for my stay to be without a hitch, and if you don't mind an inconsistent schedule you're free to stay of course, but I'm afraid I can't sustain the pace I had when I first started this blog. I'll keep posting art, but lower my activity in the fandom sphere to reduce the strain on my mental health. so fewer rants and walls of text, more art, and less stress overall. Love you all and thanks for waiting for this long <3

[starswirly]

[ * school suck of creativity + apathy? + guilt(?) over anything I could hope to create = not fun ]

[thecoolerliauditore]

I don't disagree with your whole "Pearl should stay and discover the consequences," per se, because I DO believe getting "rescued" by Gem or Jimmy or Tango or whoever will ultimately not be very good for her character. But. BUT. i DO feel like there's a very likely probability that if and when she does go red, she turns on her "allies" especially if she establishes in her mind that they're toxic and Not Good For Her beforehand. THEN we can have a team-up with somebody else, because it's on her terms. The only problem with that is that it reinforces the picture of Pearl that Scott and Cleo already have in their heads, which is a problem in itself. The bottom line is I'm not quite sure I want to see her disintegrate into nothing because I feel like it would be quite unsatisfying, Instead, I really DO want to see her get driven insane by these people and start murdering, because it would be a better arc for her character as it's all on her own terms rather than being "rescued" by somebody else. The problem with this is that Pearl is too fucking loyal and will probably redirect her homicidal urges toward people outside of PICS. Anyways new Life Series is terrible I love it so much bye. - C

Okay I think I might've worded myself a bit weirdly my bad. When I said I wanted to see Pearl deal with the consequences, I didn't mean it in the sense of I hope she sticks with them the whole season and things never change.

I ALSO don't hope she leaves them for another team. In fact when it comes to watching these live I don't really "hope" anything, I just take what I'm given and work with what I get -- because I know my expectations are going to be significantly more self-indulgent and thus less challenging than what the series itself will present me with. Like if it were up to me we'd be watching six seasons of Ethubs' ongoing toxic married couple roleplay and scott smajor monologuing evangelion style but that isn't what we got and I'm glad for it.

My original "I hope she gets whittled down to nothing" comment was more just me trying to be contrarian and funny since I'd seen a lot of people rallying for her to leave them and join Gem and Joel and I thought I'd be a stick in the mud about it.

TLDR I don't like having expectations. Whatever happens I'm going to make awesome in my head regardless.

Don't get me wrong if she does actually stay with them the whole season and gets kicked around the whole time I'm going to be melting into a puddle of despair and entropy with the rest of you forever I will never be a human being again. But also I love that this series has that effect on me.

[scarletiswailing347]

highkey thinking of moving main socmeds again....

[torao-chan]

been thinking about one of my og ot3s.... prussia/canada/romano again....

[vicontheinternet]

You should’ve see my face when I read ‘feminine’. This is why you will never get me to join that fandom. Do they not know that Shonda Rhimes is a BLACK woman who has made it her mission to be the sole reason why loving v Virgina doesn’t get overturned that woman lovers her a swirl. You’re not going to get a same race relationship out of her for main character. Also Micheal is John’s cousin why would he be white.

And let me stick this one here talking shit about this fandom I’ll drop this screenshot here. Let’s not try to remember what twitter thread or tweet this was from it’s two years old. Saying that Simon was a dark skin lead is crazy and they knew that not what op meant by dark skin women

[doodlingwren]

It's 2024 can we please stop saying it's normal to trace or copying an entire drawing and pretending it's 100% your work? Just bc you changed the character or added clothes on a base you found on pinterest it doesn't mean you created original art

[itsalwaysdark]

i think itis funny in the past when i would list my interests as if i post abt them i donot post abt the shit im into rly Mainly bc im not rly Into Into anything anymore i occasionally watch or read or play something but i dont do fandom stuff rly much.... just sometimes i get brainworms

[loveackermannn]

i am missing levi so badly, i've been deprived of seeing him on my screen for over a year......

[frankierohugejorts]

hmmm trying to go to sleep but instead cannot stop thinking abt the fandom trend ive noticed growing over the last couple years of portraying gnc gay men like gender-conforming cis women with the pronouns changed, and like. on a case by case basis it can often be put down to bad writing, but when looked at as a whole it's actually a pretty insidious brand of homophobia

[chevvy-yates]

💕 self-love time! talk about which ones of YOUR creations (edits, artworks, fanfics) you like the most then send to other creators to do the same 💕

Another one? xD

okay what now … more photography I guess.

I'll post some stuff I did back in 2021 and 2022 for my IG before I layed it to rest, before I got into VP.

Moon, Sun and crows (Ryder would love it):

Air field stuff (Ryder would love it):

old Plymouth (Thyjs would love it):

red poppy details (Thys would love it):

Cross spider in Gritzwald,Poland (again Ryder would love it):

this is just the tip of the ice berg – I don't even know anymoe what my lil EOS M50 has all seen since I got it in 2019. I have to edit approx 500 pics and look through thrice as much?

[cables-and-wires]

just got a post reblogged by a proshipper who tried to argue with me. literally never interacted with proshippers before. no i don't want to debate if it's ethical to draw or write underage fictional porn. please be normal and please leave

[ilikerosesalot]

The sheer amount of isat content I'm engaging with....the way I'm not rlly active with genshin anymore...I think I might need to update my bio